Posts tagged MentalHealth
The Upside of Down: Becoming an Artist After an Assault

April 27, 2019 marked the 10 year anniversary of the assault and battery that led to the birth of "Acrylic Alchemy" and, ultimately, the man I have become. I know this may not be my prettiest picture...though possibly close...but this is real life. Multiple facial fractures, severe eye trauma, and a concussion, this assault and battery was the catalyst for my series "The Up-Side of Down." This teachable moment also breathed life into my signature Carini Arts icon, the image I saw flashing through my head during my concussive state.

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Nightly Rituals: The Process of Anxiety and OCD Medication

Medication has a stigma behind it. Some people see the transparent orange-tinted bottle resting on my sink and glance at me nervously. It makes them curious; it causes them to worry, and they sometimes look at you differently. It’s not usually with malice but can lead people down a path of presumptions and self-conclusions about the nature of who you are and what you’re capable of handling. 

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Michael's Note: The Suicide Note My Father Never Left That Was Almost My Own

In August 2012, at the age of 28 and on the precipice of homelessness, I was reconnected with the biological family I never knew. At that time, I learned that my father, also named Michael, did not die in a car accident as I had always been told. Rather, I came to find out that he took his own life on my mother's 21st Birthday, just shortly before I turned a year old. He did not leave a note. Almost 30 years later, in my most personal and emotional creation to date, I wrote that note for my father. Written through our collective heart, eyes, and hand, that piece of our soul is "Michael's Note."

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A False Sense of Connectivity Part One: How Social Media is Changing The Landscape of Connection

I had the fantastic opportunity to compete in this year's Young Global Awards on behalf of Pennsylvania State University; a process of human behavioral studies and creative advertisement based on the selected theme. This years theme was technological awareness and screentime. Despite it being an artistic and photographic task, the journey taught me a few things about the evolution of our society changes, and I'd like to share them with you. There will be three separate articles in this series.

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Leaving Her Behind: Why We Need to Let Anxiety Kidnap Who We Were

I kidnapped my past self. I grabbed her fiercely by the shoulders and implored her to listen. I screamed at her inevitability, begging them to leave. But I wasn't angry at her; I sobbed sadly as she let go of my hand. We always assume we have to carry all of the past versions of ourselves—but we don't. So, when I finally let go, it genuinely felt as if I was observing someone I love die in front of me.

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